Bruised

This song I wrote in November of 2017. This was a tough period of my recovery because I was still in a lot of pain physically and emotionally. My bone bruises and injuries on my legs were still very bothersome on the outside and inside my heart and mind were still royally banged up and bruised. I felt so numb inside emotionally and the skin on my left knee that had been run over was literally numb on the outside (to this day two and a half years later - some of the skin is still numb.)

All my therapists at Spaulding Rehabilitation Hospital kept telling me it would get better with time, but at the time, I felt like my recovery was progressing so slowly. I knew I wanted light to come through me. I was tired of living in the darkness. This song described how I was longing to find a way to create something meaningful and important in and with my life. When I wrote this song it sparked a glimmer of hope that I was going to be able to find my passion for life again and live a more meaningful life, even though at the time I was not sure what that would look like. I knew there was a part of me deep down inside that was begging to be expressed and explored. I no longer could or wanted to hide this yearning from myself or my world. I wanted to live my life more fully. At the time I did not realize how much these songs would mean to me and even as I write this today I can barely believe I have created this album. Deep down I was longing to create something that only I could create and wanted to feel like it mattered. I have always wanted to be a part of something bigger than myself and have always wanted to make a difference in peoples lives in a significant way. Some days I still feel “Bruised” but even in that pain, luckily, I still see hope and promise for my future (and yours). “Life is difficult” is the first sentence in the book, The Road Less Traveled. At times life is very difficult but underneath the darkness/difficulties is light. This light can lead us to parts of ourselves we never knew were brewing inside of us, as long as we take time to slow down and listen. I am so grateful that I found the strength and courage to slow down and listen to my inner voice. I hope each day I continue to listen.