Keep Moving

This song I wrote in October of 2017, about six months after my accident.  I was still going to Spaulding Rehabilitation Hospital three times a week for multiple appointments.  My Physical Therapist, Elizabeth Cornforth, is who inspired much of this song.  I got the message early on from her that if I just, “Keep Moving” I will somehow come out the other side of this trauma.  Some days I felt like I was just going through the motions and was not sure if I would ever find my way. 

I struggled with the word “Astray” in the song for quite some time and still wonder to this day if I used it correctly.  My singing teacher, Jack Byrne, says it works.  I basically felt like I was often taking one step forward and two steps back.  Somehow deep in my core I knew I had to keep moving, even if I did not always know where I was going, mentally, emotionally or spiritually, but I felt if I kept moving my body I would hopefully somehow find some peace.  During those weeks I often felt like I was going Astray.  The definition of Astray is, “Away from the correct path or direction.” 

At that point I am not sure I knew exactly what was the, “correct path,” no one did.  I was trying to make my way through.  Having multiple injuries of such magnitude, especially my concussion, I was never exactly sure what was going to help me heal.  It is often a varied combination of different techniques that helps someone make a full recovery.  Unfortunately not everyone makes a full recovery.  I was very, very lucky.  I also worked very hard and did everything my Physical Therapist, Speech Pathologist and Occupational Therapist told me to do and then more. 

During this time, walking was still a challenge, but my INTERNAL struggle was an ENORMOUS challenge.  I was terrified I might not find a way to live more aligned with my inner core.  My mind was eager to figure out what was next.  I knew I wanted to change, change the way I saw the world, change the way I interacted in the world and change the way I felt in the world.  I wanted to feel more grounded and I realize now that moving helps me stay grounded. That motivation has stuck with me.  Remember to get up and move whenever you hear a song that sings to you.