Wait For Me | a love song

I knew I wanted to write a song for my husband Neil. As you can imagine witnessing your wife recover from such a horrific accident was not easy. Especially in the beginning when I was most effected by my concussion. I know it was tough on him. As my recovery continued there where times when I felt so lost and distant from myself that I feared I may never find light in my heart again. I cried a lot and often felt worthless. Looking back I know now that my brain was trying to heal, but at the time my despair felt so real and raw.  

I think deep down I knew my husband would always wait for me, but at the time I did not always feel like I was worth waiting for. I remember the first time he listened to this song and he was almost confused and said, “Meghan of course I will wait for you.” It hit me then, and I continue to appreciate it everyday, his undying love for me no matter what state I am in. I am very, very lucky to have such a caring man love me and continue to grow with me every day. And I am grateful that he continued to wait for me.

            Many tears have been shed singing this song especially the lyrics, “I hope that I am worth the wait” and, “I fear I may not be worth the wait” and surprisingly, “Deep down I know I’m worth the wait.” This song touched my deepest insecurities… am I worthy? My grief was heavy and real at this point of my recovery. I feared I may have lost love from my husband, love for myself and love of life. I felt so broken. Writing and singing this song helped me realize I am worthy of my husbands love and more importantly worth of loving myself.